It still stings

    As I had said many times before coing home early was a very hard thing for me. And over time it got better. It was eaiser to do what I needed to and it was easier to talk about going on my mission and coming home early. I had learned to deal with any negative comments and I had learned to be proud of myself.

    But I still have those days. Those days were I am upset with myself. The days that something will come in the mail from my mission or something that is said will bring up a painful memory. I had a roommate that brought up her mission so much that I was reminded of my mission everyday, This happens and it stings, even after a year certain subjects still hurt. 

    Why am I telling you this? To give hope, and to let you know that things may hurt for awhile. It is not just for returned missionaries but everyone. Anyone who has suffered a lost, or who has repented from a major sin or has done something they are ashamed of.  You will heal but those little dashes of pain remind you how far you have come and how far you have yet to go. Be strong and of good courage you can do this.