The Healers

      My last companion just got home from her mission. She was amazing and she meant so much to me. She was such a spiritual power house and a great missionary. But I wasn't. I didn't deserve her. This still haunts me to know that I could have caused her any form of pain. Because of her I am the person I am today. She helped me get through coming home early. She prayed with me and comforted me.  She gave me an example of the ultimate Christ like love. I owe her so much.
      We all have that person. The person that loved us even when we were being a jerk. The person that cared for us when we didn't deserve it. The lord gave us these people. When we hurt for what ever reason God puts loving people in our path. These people help God to heal the wounds that have been caused. Thank you healers. Let us try to be healers and in turn be more Christ like.

It still stings

    As I had said many times before coing home early was a very hard thing for me. And over time it got better. It was eaiser to do what I needed to and it was easier to talk about going on my mission and coming home early. I had learned to deal with any negative comments and I had learned to be proud of myself.

    But I still have those days. Those days were I am upset with myself. The days that something will come in the mail from my mission or something that is said will bring up a painful memory. I had a roommate that brought up her mission so much that I was reminded of my mission everyday, This happens and it stings, even after a year certain subjects still hurt. 

    Why am I telling you this? To give hope, and to let you know that things may hurt for awhile. It is not just for returned missionaries but everyone. Anyone who has suffered a lost, or who has repented from a major sin or has done something they are ashamed of.  You will heal but those little dashes of pain remind you how far you have come and how far you have yet to go. Be strong and of good courage you can do this.