FAILURE

     When you come home early you feel like a failure. At least I did. It was horrible it was just one more emotion that made its way into my heart. I had not been strong enough or good enough to stay out the entire timed. It was all my fault and I had not accomplished my goal. I was a disappointment to my friends, my family, myself, and God.  As you can Imagine this was a horrible way to feel.
     I had technically failed, I had a not achieved what I wanted.  I saw it as black and white. You go the whole time you succeed you don't you fail. But this was not right at all. We do not all have the same measure of success as any other person. Success for me was even going. It was getting up everyday even though I just wanted to lie in bed. It was pretending to be happy when I wasn't. It was going a whole appointment without saying something stupid. That was what success for me was. For others it was going the whole time, or baptizing a hundred people, or going into a leadership position. But not me, my success looked different then anyone else's. It was mine.
    We all have different abilities and we all succeed in different ways. The only way we can fail is by not trying. Any MRRM did not fail we succeeded to the best of our ability.
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